Posted by zmg on July 28, 2007, at 19:14:05
Let me start by saying that in the past I have had a Ritalin habit (which I've mentioned elsewhere) that was one of the most difficult habits I have personally had to break. Which is my way of saying I know how stupid I was being regarding this.
Anyway, I recently came across a small supply of unopened (unexpired) 10 MG Ritalin tablets. I took the Ritalin on several occasions trying to achieve some positive effect.
As towards the later part of my prior experience regardless of method or dosage all I managed to achieve was varying levels of anxiousness and raised heart rate/bp.
Gone were the creative bursts, euphoria or even anything remotely resembling pleasant stimulation. I felt much more like I'd taken an overly large dose of caffeine pills or similar.
In fact I'd probably have concocted a scenario where the pills may have in fact been counterfeit but aside from the pristine packaging which would have been expensive of duplicate this lack of effects too nearly mirrored my prior experience where the pill/brand/source where all completely different.
Anyway, I'm not looking for someone to explain how I can abuse Ritalin again. It seems clear to me that for one reason or another this option is simply off the table.
What I am curious about is why this would happened. At first I worried about brain damage from my earlier abuse. But were that the case I'm no worse or better off functionally then I was before. I've actually accomplished a lot more since I'd stopped using the first time and work in a technical field that requires a lot of reading and constant updating of existing knowledge (computers).
I have taken more traditional (ie, non-scheduled) stimulants on occasion (I drink coffee in moderation, etc) with the expected results. At the time I'd attempted to take the Ritalin I wasn't using any other drugs or supplements.
Anyway, I was just wondering if anyone would have any idea or had had similar experiences. I'm sure it's for the best, but it does leave me quite curious.
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