Posted by James K on May 15, 2006, at 0:57:31
I don't want this to be triggering to any of you, but I am going to talk about the actual feelings of use here.
I've been mostly sober for a short while, and am remembering and thinking much more than I'm used to. I got to thinking about way back when I could still get really messed up. Before my tolerance and physical health stopped me.
There is a kind of intoxication that can only come from taking like three different drugs at once. When my entire head and body would be white static. I couldn't be nervous, couldn't feel, just exist. That kind of intoxication can stay with you for a day.
I'm wondering now about what that means in terms of the brain. I don't know if scientists have ever really investigated what neurons are doing when say pot, alcohol, lsd, and inhalants are all in the system and messing with different things all at the same time.
It seems such an abnormal thing to do my body and brain. I was young. I'm sick now, and I don't think well sometimes. I'd forgotten what it was to be that high. I don't do drugs for the most part anymore, and I couldn't really feel good drunk for a long time. I wonder how much is "burned out" I felt so resiliant back then. Now I feel fragile, like I could mess myself up worse easily.
Oh well, like I said just thinking.
James K
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