Posted by verne on October 31, 2005, at 7:46:06
In reply to Really difficult week., posted by ClearSkies on October 30, 2005, at 23:25:58
That's great you've gone so long without drinking and weathered the home invasion. I'm back at the drawing board, square one, or dung pile where I spilled off the wagon. Actually, 4th day, my head still hurts, and the kitchen is a wasteland.
My daughter, now 20 years old, confronted me about the drinking for the first time. She let me know how much it hurts her to see me this way. We are drawing up a simple "contract" which we will renew and fine tune every 3 months. She's coming over tomorrow for the final draft.
The central point will be not to drink. After that, I will agree to a certain amount of exercise and meditation each day. I'm also boxing up most of my supplements which tend to get me into trouble. If I take a sublingual B-12, I'm about ready to sell my daughter for a six-pack, I get so agitated.
Like too much AA, too many vitamins, herbs, and other supplements makes me more likely to drink.
I'm also hoping to add yoga, egoscue exercises, Chi Gong, spiritual reading, and the BPD course. But for now I guess we will keep the contract simple.
Seems like the in-laws could have been more discreet about their drinking if they knew you had difficulties with it. If I were under siege in my own home, I would have locked myself in any room I could call my own, dragged the refrigerator and tv into my vortex of doom, and gone on a week-long bender.
You are a lot stronger than me. Whatever you are doing is working. I would like to see 70 plus days again.
Verne
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