Posted by Happyflower on May 8, 2007, at 21:21:43
In reply to Re: I am so happy about my report card » Happyflower, posted by Poet on May 8, 2007, at 21:06:47
You know I was thinking I was also be obsessive about it, but my family doctor told me I am doing this because it is important to me and because I am capable of doing it. He said a lot of his collegues (himself included) had to do "perfect" in order to get into a good school. He said if it is important to you, than it is okay if it will make your life what you want it to be.
Right now, I feel like it is something that I can control in my life. I can't control my kids or my DH, but I can control myself. I need this for me, just for me.
My Doctor told me that "wanting it" will not go away, but I need to learn how to deal with the stress of accomplishing things when I am under the pressure. He said being a T, will be very hard, and stressful. He told me I am learning how to be a T. LOL Plus I am also learning that if I need to take a med for my anxitey, that it is okay, I am asking for help.
So I feel I want to do this, it is making me stressed out, but in the end it feels so good. Will my life be over if I get a B? Probably not, I might be disapointed in myself, but it would be okay if I tried my hardest. I feel like if I am capable I SHOUD do it, why waste it?
Plus it feels good to acomplish something when you work so hard, unlike playing the trumpet, for me. I guess I can see where you are coming from.
As far as your T is concerned, does he think he could of gotten into a grad program without having a good grade point average? Grades are not everything in life, but getting good ones, feels so damn good. :-) It had done wonders for my self esteem.
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