Posted by Racer on April 8, 2006, at 11:09:40
I got my exam back, and the results won't be helping stop my superstitious anxiety after tests.
I had minor surgery last week, which frankly worried me more than the test did, so I didn't really think about the test until I got it back last Tuesday. And guess what? The test I didn't worry about and obsess over for the nearly two weeks until I got it back? I didn't do nearly as well as I thought. In fact, I very nearly didn't get an A! It was such a shocker -- really upsetting to me. And I have the math midterm on Tuesday, which doesn't help. Lots of worry between now and then, because I really don't get all of what we've been covering.
The instructor, by the way, is pretty hopeless. I mentioned to someone else in the class, "Well, all those numbers are the same, really, it's just whether we're solving for x or for y...." She hadn't gotten that far, and he hasn't said a word to relate this to anything else we've done. Just out of the blue... Grrr. (For those of you who know that I used to teach, you might figure out I have strong feelings about teaching skills. I'm learning this stuff, and I could teach this class better than he is doing.)
(And isn't it interesting that I have adequate self esteem about my teaching skills? Somehow, that's different for me, and I am confident in my ability to teach, and to teach well. ANYTHING else you asked me about, I would not be able to say that about, without a lot of waffling and self-doubt. But I am an excellent teacher, and I can say it.)
So, wish me luck, someone send Fallsfall to help me learn it all, and cross our fingers that stopping the Adderall in favor of Dexedrine decreases this depression.
And let's see if I go nuts over the results of this test...
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