Posted by alexandra_k on March 28, 2005, at 5:51:51
In reply to Re: I know..., posted by alexandra_k on March 28, 2005, at 5:38:35
Whats hard is that I am the head tutor for a course I have never even taken before. I never took it as an undergrad.
It is a fairly general course in critical thinking.
But I really am learning along with the students.
I am scaired about it because I don't know where the course is headed - in terms of telling them what important things to note etc are. Sometimes I find myself saying 'but don't worry about that' and then next week that becomes the focus. I missed doing something in the tut just before the test that they were tested on specifically. People lost marks because I forgot to tell them what standard form was and to emphasise YOU HAVE TO DRAW A LINE BEFORE THE CONCLUSION. I didn't think we were on to that yet. But it was my mistake. And people did worse because I didn't do my job properly.
And so I am feeling stressed and underqualified and so on... And I am taking 5 of the 9 tutorials for the course. So most people in the class get me and if I f*ck up most people suffer.
I don't want to do this anymore.
I shouldn't even be doing it.
I am not qualified.
And when I reflect on my being the most qualified I realise just what a joke this is.And as well as that I am taking half another course (which I have tutored before thank god). Not that I should have then, either...
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