Posted by alexandra_k on May 27, 2014, at 16:50:45
In reply to Re: melting..., posted by alexandra_k on May 26, 2014, at 22:17:45
my contact died.
the medical guy. who i was friends with in australia. who got a little too friendly at some point... who... stayed on the friend radar (though a lot more distantly after that). who... ended up being kicked out by his wife... ended up with some other lady... looking really good. lost heaps of weight. eventually... deteriorated. heart failure. death. he died. when i was in wellington. hit me hard, really. he was... like a father, yeah.
he gave me a referral when i was in aussie. to see the best gp i've ever seen in my whole entire life. she was... amazing. i don't think i took up particularly much of her time... but she was terrific. i felt heard. looking at some of the hormonal stuff... it's all still an issue for me, but in this country the party line is to laugh it off as cosmetic. cysts and infections and... well... who the f*ck cares. too hard.
i didn't go to his funeral. partly... it just seemed wrong. since i didn't get to my dads. that's weird, huh. mostly... i didn't have anything to wear. having to deal with heaps and heaps and heaps of other people... and the person i was staying with / would have gone with... would have been mostly enjoying the drama / family reunion aspect of the situation which wouldn't have sit so well with me...
uh.
point being... i really need a good gp. and i have no idea how to find one. not at student health, i know that for sure. they are more of an alliance of 9 or some freaking thing and you see whoever is free, anyway... probably not the rich suburbs either side (trophy wives probably don't mind being ripped off from socially gregarious doctors with the right look whatever they know / don't know)... i wonder if i should contact the autism support people for this... see if any adults on the spectrum have any positive reccommendations...
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