Posted by alexandra_k on January 7, 2014, at 0:25:58
In reply to Re: oh my, posted by alexandra_k on January 6, 2014, at 23:35:18
take a moment... take a breath.
i wonder why... i just got words... but i never got numbers... People need to teach me numbers. And teach me how to think of the notation... Teach me what it means.
when i feel anxious... i need to stop and take a breath. not... randomly click around on unfamiliar computers... stop. and look. and think, for a minute. not get so anxious that i can only hear my heart going thumpity thump thump where my brain fairly much turns off. i think that is part of why i found math hard... the physical closeness of the person trying to give me individual help got me feeling anxious... the sense that they were waiting for me... that i was too slow...
i still feel ambivalent. like i would profit most from working through the math by myself... need to learn the balance between stuff that it is better to do on my own and stuff that it is better to get help with (if possible). collaborate... cooperate... that stuff...
i... still feel happy that i've come home. that i'm learning. that the people around me are... good people. nice people. and amazingly smart. feeling a little... intimidated / overawed at the moment... but then i remember that i do have ability in philosophy that i can hold close to my heart for a bit... which helps things feel a bit better. and to think that i jolly well should be capable of being nicer and kinder and more helpful to others because i've got that. some of them... are still finding their strengths... it will be okay. this is good for me. i'm learning to be calmer.
uninterrupted sleep tonight will help... but then... i also tend to function best when i'm a little wired... when i feel overtired... food... physics... i'm going to be okay.
poster:alexandra_k
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