Posted by alexandra_k on December 21, 2013, at 20:16:12
In reply to Re: i don't like the internet anymore, posted by alexandra_k on December 21, 2013, at 20:11:52
holy crap. i am okay. it is just hard with things being on lockdown. there is a fine line for me of getting my own personal space (which i need) and having too much of it and then feeling lonely but not knowing how to reach out...
there are people swimming outside. how easy it would be for me to go join them.
i...
need a drink.
that was what was masking my social anxiety... smoking... drinking. i always knew i had social anxiety... difficulty processing social information. yeah. i can do it... but not for as long as most people can. and most people don't seem to need to try... they just... hang out. effortless. enjoying.
i like getting drunk with people. i miss my best bud santiago... dude... i'm sorry there wasn't chemistry there... i couldn't... but you were my best bud in the whole wide world and i miss you. even though we would have only smoked and drunk ourselves to death.
miss you so much.
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