Posted by Christ_empowered on October 12, 2010, at 22:06:22
So, I moved a few months ago. Before, I'd been *the* outcast in my small town. Crazy, unemployed, unattractive, drug-addled...I was all around stigmatized and an outcast.
Now, I'm healthier (I got older, but I look younger...weird, huh?), less crazy, and no one knows me, so I'm no longer an outcast. I don't know how to deal with it, though.
I'm so used to having people avoid me, even going so far as to cross the street to avoid me...so used to having people I know (people I work with, even) act like they don't see me in public...that now, now that I'm treated just like anybody else, I don't know quite what to make of it.
Its not like I get treated amazingly well here, either. I'm still a little overweight and I dress in Goodwill clothes (looking for a job AND on a juice fast at the moment), so its not like I get points for being uber-hot or well-dressed. But I'm treated, like I said...just like anybody else. The sad thing is, I'm so used to be treated like crap that I don't know what to make of this. Today, in the grocery store, a store attendant said "thanks, hon"--nothing major--and I burst into a big smile. I was sooo *happy* to be treated with just a little bit of kindness, I didn't know what to do.
Anyone ever experienced this?
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