Posted by Cass on April 2, 2010, at 20:35:55
Hi everyone,
Gosh, I'm sure a few of you remember me. I just pop in every once in awhile. I guess I usually post here when I'm sad. Today I miss my husband more than usual. I don't like the holiday season. Easter usually doesn't bother me, but this one bothers me a lot. I'm not Christian. I don't believe in the resurrection. But Easter has me thinking of death. My husband died over a year ago now. He was a larger than life figure, full of wit and laughter, tenderness and personality and love for people. Life is so quiet now at home. I have good friends who love me, and I love them. Even with the difficulties in my life, I'm not doing too bad. But today I feel a hole in my soul. So here I am with a Snapple with Bourbon trying to make myself feel better, and coming back to the old faithful Psycho-babble. I just quit a job because the client was too toxic and crazy, but it was better to be busy. I don't have enough to do now, and I feel lonely. I have my dog. She's old, really old. She's been the best dog on earth. I love her so much! Aside from myself, she's the last living thing in this house. My husband is gone, the cat was diabetic and not getting better, so there's me and my old dog.
BTW, just to be clear, I am not suicidal.
Cass
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