Posted by manic666 on September 20, 2009, at 12:06:40
therapist, now there,s a job . my cbt lady sent a letter to say she was moveing on. and could she see my a last time, she said i dont have to but you are a one off, i carnt argue with that? we spent 1 hour chatting an she said brian there is no therapist really to do much, as you have no main problem to focus on,the cbt was a problem you had solved yourself years ago an many other probs as well. i said i had to i had no help,she said my outlook was f*ck them all. she said why dont you work for/ mind/ a mental heath drop in an advice centre.as your easy an confident manner would help people . i said i dont no about the one,she kissed me on the cheek an said i sertanly wont forget you in a hurry an thanked me again for makeing the ladies on the cbt course laugh.that night it hit me ////// she had struck on something without reoliseing.stick with the spelling im struggling hear.i now see i am 2 different people,when young an put down by my old man an bullied by people.i suffered with anxierty illnesess, like excema an other problems that no one seemed bothered about or interested, i was in a void no answers from parents no love from old man.trapped in a downer, so i developed this 2 person later the fighting, shagging, drinking funny guy up for anything.the one people still see today an want to be, but the real me is still that anxierty filled kid , who needs to be on his own a lot of times , whats it called behind the mask//so there you have it worked out layed on the table,no $100/000 a year p doc told me just my damaged brain cells,even though i may of found the answer , there is no happy ending, sure f*ck the therapy waste of time for me,meds will be in my life forever,i see that unless my 2 alter ego,s forge into one, hey im two people cool
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