Posted by Deneb on July 26, 2009, at 16:19:52
In reply to Re: I'm OK now, posted by SLS on July 26, 2009, at 7:04:30
I got this message pre-approved by Dinah so I know it is OK.
> I'm glad that you are OK.
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> I understand your confusion. I don't think there are any easy answers for you to be found on Psycho-Babble, though. I really hope that you pursue getting a second opinion regarding your condition and address it more aggressively. Something has to change.My pdoc knows me the best. I'm not sure if a second opinion would be able to compare to what I have with pdoc. She has known for for about 8 years. My pdoc did say I have borderline personality disorder. It's just in person the social anxiety sticks out more. I used to be worse, much much worse. I remember wanting to jump in front of cars after I thought my prof. was giving me a criticism. In reality my prof. wasn't even talking to me. I just thought he was. Oh man, I used to be bad. I remember when this all started, my last year of high school. I'd always been really shy before but suddenly I went crazy or something. I wanted to kill myself a lot, all the time. I bit myself and cut and I seriously thought everyone was talking about me. I remember I would hide from the teachers and it was like in a movie where everyone was against me. Man I was messed up. I didn't have pdoc back then.
How would I go about getting a second opinion?
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> Insanity:
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> "Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results" - Albert Eienstein.
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> I wouldn't discourage you from posting. I do think that you can process many of your emotions by yourself, though. I know you realize that your mood and emotions are very labile. That is why I suggested elsewhere that you perhaps give yourself some time to reconcile your emotions and use self-talk to stabilize yourself before posting. Of course, you will receive support no matter how you post.
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> Sometimes, it seems to me that you use Psycho-Babble to "think out loud" and post each feeling as it comes up. Perhaps waiting awhile between posts will allow you to consolidate your thoughts and feelings in a way that is more therapeutic.Yeah, I think I do that a lot. I think out loud, writing things that just come to mind. I just feel like sharing my thoughts.
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> I hope that I am giving good advice. I may not be. I try, though.
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> Speaking of hope, I think you can look forward to having your condition treated effectively with a combination of medication and psychotherapy. I do not believe that you are stuck. I see progress with you despite the possible lack of effective therapies. I can only guess what you might be struggling with. I have witnessed someone with symptoms similar to yours heal and grow using medication and psychotherapy that was designed to treat her particular condition. At this point, I question whether or not you are being for the right condition. I would go get that second opinion. Regardless of what you decide to do, just make sure that you are totally honest with your health care providers and do not keep secrets.
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> - ScottI'm not very good at communicating with my pdoc or expressing my emotions. My emotions are usually simply described as "good" or "bad". Can someone here write a description of my problematic behaviours so I can print them off and give to my pdoc to read? I have a hard time describing things.
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