Posted by Deneb on June 13, 2009, at 0:37:20
In reply to Re: Please respect my decision, posted by BirdSong on June 13, 2009, at 0:22:51
In no way have I threatened to commit suicide here, not in a long time. I have written that I DO NOT want to jump off the bridge. I am AFRAID of jumping off. Does that sound like a threat??
I also wrote I am thinking about, but WILL NOT OD. Again does that seem like a threat?
In the past I have threatened. When I threaten I will say, I am going to hang myself on Mon with the rope I bought today at Walmart. THAT is threatening.
I am also not trying to be manipulative. At times I am scared for myself and I am communicating my FEAR of harming myself.
Right now I do not want to die, so if I ever truly threaten I will be serious. The fact is, I do scare myself. I have OD'd seriously enough to end up in hospital. Other times I just did not go to the hospital. I don't lie on Babble. If I write I took 10 pills, I really DID take 10 pills. If I write that I am OK, it really means I am OK.
I am feeling angry and unheard.
poster:Deneb
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