Posted by shortie on October 1, 2008, at 11:21:28
This was me a year or so ago on different board. I still feel pretty much the same a year or so later. I'm on different meds that seem to be working for now. I have also been properly dx'd with major depression and PTSD. My tdoc also seems to think I am BP. I take Paxil, Trazodone and Geodon. I now see a therapist and a phsyciatrist. My husband has gotten a little better with support. Well, since I had a complete meltdown in August of this year and had to be admitted to a crisis stabilization center. He didn't realize how bad it actually was I don't think. Anyway...this is me...in a nutshell (picturing Austin Powers doing I'm in a nutshell let me out)
My name is Kim. I live in South Carolina with my son and husband. I started taking antidepressants a little less than a year ago when I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Although I have recently stopped taking my medication because I don't think its helping. I am prone to meltdowns, I could sleep all the time if I didn't have to come to this he** hole called work (that's another story) Yet at night I have trouble going to sleep because of the thoughts that are going through my head. I feel alone most of the time alot of times my husband seems to think that there's nothing wrong with me that I should just suck it up and move on therefore I don't feel very supported. I think what brought me here today is I feel like I need to get better. But, just like this I don't know where to start. Last night was one of the worst nights I have had in a while. I just couldn't stop crying and it was just over something stupid my husband said I just take things so personally and I overanalyze what people say. I also fly off the handle at the smallest thing that my 6 year old does. He must hate me because I'm sure he's on egg shells all the time. I absolutley hate my job. I make any and every excuse to just stay home. On the weekends I stay inside all the time and would rather sleep than do anything. I know that just sounds plain lazy but its not, I love the outdoors I just don't want to have to talk to anybody or see anybody. I put on a happy face and cheery disposition to people and alot of the people in my life can't imagine why I'm depressed. I guess it just got old. I'm tired of pretending everything is okay when its really not. I just don't know what to do to get better.
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