Posted by Fivefires on June 5, 2007, at 20:05:24
Apologize, first of all, re: posting on Social.
I often seem to connect and receive feedback via this board, it being somewhat more open-ended a board, rather than posting situation-specific boards. This situation is ‘so not ‘ specific. It is very widely misunderstood. Shadowplayers721 … you may understand.
Some of u may recall the phenomena which I suffered during nervous breakdown in 2005.One was ‘a feeling of pressure in the top back of my head’, not ‘similar to a headache’.
It is happening right now!!!
It happened (in the hospital) after difficulty breathing –or- hyperventilating for long periods, and it was quite quickly relieved by 10mg Valium.
During one such period, left untreated by Valium, it led to ‘a state of mind of paranoia’. Thank God I knew enough about paranoia to self-talk (‘It is all in my head.’ ‘All people are NOT focusing and talking about me.’) myself through these stints before receiving Valium. Also during these times, I once had an occurrence of ‘near syncope’. I called for help. Nurses came running, helped me back to near their station, took my BP, (I think it was my 3rd day there and this was the first time they checked it.) and ‘it was so not right’, told me to sit w/ my head down between my knees until doctor called.
My doctors would often forget to properly convey to nurses ‘via chart’, the authorization of administration of Valium, time, and dosage. This is why they were awaiting a call from him. I was supposed to have been given Valium ‘before’ all this happened, but doc left w/o noting it on chart.
This past Sunday, I had finished getting ready to leave for an errand. I was about ready to leave when all of the sudden ‘I become overwhelmed and began crying and shaking. (These are two other phenomena very prevalent before and during the breakdown in 2005.). I hit the bed. Yesterday it was all I could do to take my meds and make it to and fro the bathroom.It is Tues and I am just now able to sit up and access my pute. Still this isn’t ez. One of my daughter’s brought me some food, giving me a reason to force myself to the kitchen table. She left and I’d just lied down to rest.
My head hit the pillow and I noticed I have the same ‘feeling of pressure in the top back of my head’. It is really scaring me. I left two emergency messages for doc, talked w/ psych nurse who works on a detox unit, my therapist, my caseworker, pretty much every1!
No one seems to know what this is or if it might be dangerous to me!
At the hospital I was given 10mg Valium t.i.d., but now an outpatient, I am on Xanax. (I can take 2mg Xanax t.i.d.) I called the pharmacy and was told one cannot compare Valium to Xanax as it remains in your system longer.I’m scared and feel ‘quite left all alone in this frightening time’. Do I need Valium v. Xanax, I am wondering. Well friends, whatever u can say or do will be helpful. I feel very abandoned by those who are entrusted w/ my mental health care!
Hope all well .. all ways
5f
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