Posted by madeline on October 25, 2006, at 7:32:13
In reply to need support, posted by JerryPharmStudent on October 24, 2006, at 4:17:29
It's okay Jerry. I've quit a lot of things too and it really is alright.
Nightmares can be really awful, but they are usually our brain trying to tell us something. It's funny, I didn't used to think that way, but after years of thinking about my dreams, I have changed my mind - there is something to them.
I hope you are in therapy and I would talk about my dreams there. Are there any recurrent themes? Are the dreamscapes elaborate or sparse? Why were you so scared, what lead up to the fear?
I would also post your drug list over on the babble board. There are some smart people over there who might have some pretty good insight into your pharmacology. I will admit that the inclusion of the opioids is a bit surprising to me.
Finally, the desire to seclude yourself when really depressed can be overwhelming and that is something that you must fight with all of your being. But you might not be ready to deal with a bunch of strangers (they hurt don't they) but trust that one day you will.
I think your connection with the little dog is wonderful! I have a house filled with pets and I simply can not tell you how many times they have saved me. I feel the same way you do about animals.
One thing that I did when I was at my most depressed was to start volunteering at a big cat rescue facility. At first it was tough to deal with the people there, but the animals really nurtured my soul. Over time I made a lot of really good people friends there too. Animal people are usually really good people - kind and gentle and more than a little scared of people too! It's so funny that most of us there would rather come face to face with a tiger than another human! But the key was that we can be scared of each other TOGETHER!
I would try and find a place where you can volunteer around animals - a no kill shelter, or a zoo or a sanctuary like I did. It really helped.
I'm thinking of you
Maddie
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