Posted by finelinebob on August 27, 2006, at 3:20:22
In reply to Re: World Trade Center Movie- spoiler!! » finelinebob, posted by llrrrpp on August 27, 2006, at 0:34:03
> FLB,
> I just read your stuff on 2000. I was SO worried that I had triggered you with the previous post. I'm so relieved that you responded to this.
>
> Don't worry about watching the movie. It's a wonderful, but bittersweet story, and you already have your own story. You don't need to add any more details or mental images. When you're ready, you'll know.Yes, I know this isn't an Irwin Allen disaster flick -- Oliver Stone has an entirely different style of schmaltz. But if you read my post on 2000, then you know this is my fight with the Intruder. I don't want to hide from it, tho sometimes I have to ... I want to hunt it down and kill it.
I wish I could have a theater to myself and maybe a few friends (my T among them). And free popcorn. And lots and lots and lost of napkins. I don't want to invite the Intruder into my home next year when it comes out on DVD, special 'bonus' features included. I don't want to be able to pause the movie -- time stood still that day, it's paused enough.
But I remember when Oliver Stone released Platoon. My older brother was a police officer, and many of the more senior officers were Vietnam Vets. They talked about having flashbacks and crying like babies when watching the film. But they left believing that people finally understood, and that meant the world to them.
A lot of people wrote to me -- I just got another email last week -- about how my website helped them to understand what happened that day more than any TV news coverage or anything else. My PTSD was one of those disassociations for years with a sudden, instantaneous onset like someone flipped a switch 3 years later. The sense of alienation -- that no one around me (in Michigan at the time) could possibly EVER understand what it was like to live through that day and the months after -- was unbearable. Besides all my good reasons, that DROVE me back to living here, with people who lived it too. So if I can go into a theater, sit in the back row with a lot of napkins (I never sit there -- I go front and center almost all the time), and watch people leave just to see if they finally understand, that would be worth the trauma of seeing it now.
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