Posted by tootercat on July 26, 2006, at 11:31:35
It's been awhile since I have been here. I got alot of support here during a time when I thought I was not going to "make it". I have since remarried, retired from my job and although those are happy things they are big changes. I am now also going through peri menopause, have degenerative disc disease, and can no longer be as active as I once was. Those are not so happy things and are also big changes. Rather than crawl under the covers I am trying to live in solutions rather than problems; sometimes I am good at doing that and others I want to kick and scream and cry. I started going through mood swings, anger, intolerance and sadness and anxiety and recognized some of my symptoms as being part of my female changes and possibly depression. I asked my doctor if he thought hormonal or clinical and he is treating both for the time being. After a couple of weeks I can tell you that the combination of higher estrogen bc pills, lexapro and continuing pool therapy for exercise and back rehabilitation, I am feeling somewhat better. I miss my softball, golf and when it comes to lifting, moving or carrying,being self reliant, but I know that just leads to self pity and defeat rather than adapting and finding out that asking for help isn't such a bad thing. I also need to look for new ways to keep my brain and body active. I am not a quitter; the problem seems to be that some of my self worth has been tied up in being independent and a jock. This seems to be a time for me to do some re-evaluating. Hope any of this has made sense. On the new grounds that I don't have to be perfect I am not going to edit! LOL Tooter
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