Posted by llrrrpp on June 16, 2006, at 9:08:08
I don't want to go to work anymore.
I used to look forward to it, even when I was pretty much in the depths of very bad depression.For the last week or two, I just want to stay at home all day. don't want to work, don't want to do anything. just sit still in the quiet and stare off into space.
Sick of people at work. Even though they're my friends. I don't want to be around them. They remind me of what I used to be like.
Sick of tasks. I used to enjoy the feeling of getting it done, getting feedback on my work, finishing a document, or a graph. Now, I don't want to even look at my stuff.
Sick of sitting here, waiting for my boss to ask me if I'm ready to start work on a new project, or asking for an update on my work.
Sick of trying to get to work in time to get ready for meetings and appointments. I just want to take my schedule book, call everyone, and cancel everything.
If I stayed at home for a week, would people even notice me gone. (yes), they would probably say "SLACKER". Well, just because i sit here at my desk doesn't mean I'm not slacking off. my physical presence here at "work" doesn't mean I'm being productive. In fact, i spend most of my time here staring out the window, playing on psycho-babble, reading the news online, generally tuned out.
I'm just kind of tuned out. Is that a bad thing? It feels comfortable.
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