Posted by cache-monkey on November 12, 2005, at 0:46:55 [reposted on November 13, 2005, at 19:56:54 | original URL]
In reply to Devastated, posted by april8 on November 11, 2005, at 20:12:33
> My pet guinea pig died Nov 2nd and I was devastated. I have never heard the sounds that came out of me until that moment I found him dead.
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> I am a survivor of childhood trauma, with abuse from my mother and father who I have not seen in 17 years due to their abusiveness.
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> I am one of the niciest people you could ever meet. I was working for the last 3 years with women and children who have HIV/AIDS. My job just ended Oct 31st, and I was already sad at having to say good bye to so many clients. I lost all of these amazing connections because my program was cut. In August my most beloved client died. That was devastating also.
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> But Marmot my guinea pig is even worse. It tapped into some kind of huge emotional pain that is unrelenting. It has to do with him and also the loss of my sister when I was four. I am frightened by how devastated I am.
> On top of it all of my friends have flaked on me. I am having a really hard time being alone. my boyfriend lives with me, but is working all of the time. I can't be alone.
> I am really a wreck and thinking I might go into the hospital for a couple of days. I can't be alone.
> Any support would be so great appreciated. Marmot was the first creature on this earth I loved fully without any reservation. I miss him so much. I can't believe he is gone.Dear april,
I'm so sorry that you have to suffer like this right now. The world is really not fair sometimes when it just heaps on more on top of your unhealed wounds.
Do you have *anyone* there with you that you can go to for solace? If you're seeing a therapist, maybe you can get an urgent appointment. Also, as Marsha mentioned, medication might need to be added or changed for a time.
If you are really on the edge and thinking about going to the hostpital, you have nothing to lose by doing that. There are people there who can counsel you and potentially help with some meds to put something of a floor under you.
Peace,
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