Posted by JenStar on September 30, 2005, at 0:38:11
In reply to Re: you and the bobster, posted by Deneb on September 29, 2005, at 23:23:20
Deneb,
Possibly you're only interested because he doesn't participate. You see that as a challenge (maybe) or as a mystery - do you agree?I don't think you're that influential to drive Dr. Bob's interactions here on the board. I believe that kind of expansive thinking is indicate of your dx, no? Maybe also part of the paranoia you sometimes suffer from?
In any case, Dr. Bob has chosen to limit his role here to purely administrative with maybe just a few teeny dips into sort-of-interaction from time to time. That is his choise and how he prefers it. DocJohn may have a very different role on his boards, which is his choice too.
Deneb, it's kind of frustrating to read your posts about thinking someone wants to hurt you all the time (Dr. Bob, your pdoc). You seem to obsess about this over and over. It's frustrating because I want you to be well, and when I read posts like that, it makes me think you're NOT well, since you're so disturbed by these intrusive thoughts.
Do you recognize on some level that these thoughts are "bogus" and are your mind playing tricks on you? Or do you really believe that people want to hurt you - I mean, REALLY believe it?
Have you been honest with your pdoc about these thoughts?
Sometimes it seems that you don't want to get well. You say things that imply you're going to hold info back from doctors to stay out of hospital. Or you imply that you'll just stop taking meds, or stop seeing someone. Those don't seem like the responsible actions of someone who truly is involved in their own health & trying to get better. At least IMO. Now I don't know if this is true, and i hope it's not. But when I read your posts, that how it comes across to me. You'll have to tell me (if you want to) if I made the wrong assumption.
Is the risperdal supposed to help with obsessive and paranoid thoughts? Do you think it's helping yet?
take care.
JenStar
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