Posted by Deneb on June 5, 2005, at 21:55:21
I'm not a fun person to be around IRL. Today I attended a family gathering of sorts and I must have seemed very strange...I was mute most of the time and kept to myself. I even twisted my ankle while walking on the grass with my chunky heeled sandals whilst carrying a big watering can full of water and I didn't make a peep. I've fallen and twisted my ankle before (usually while wearing high heels...geez, I've got to learn how to walk in them), but I was always ok. I think maybe the extra weight of the huge can of water I was carrying made the difference this time. My ankle is sore and has swollen up and I'm limping. :-(
I'm a sad person to be around with. All my happy times come from a fantasy world within my mind. I bet if I where to attend the Babble Party in 2006 that I would be the most quiet person there. I'd slip away into nothingness as others talk and I'd realize what a horrible mistake it was. I just hope to god (just an expression) that I don't accidentally say something inappropriate, like how much I wish to die or something. :-( I think there is also a good chance that I would be really quiet and start to quietly cry by myself as I realize what a pathetic loser I was...then I'll make others terribily uncomfortable. At that point I'll have to leave and hope for the best as I wander away aimlessly as I've done in the past.
:-(
Deneb (shy_girl)
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