Posted by sleepygirl on June 4, 2005, at 23:22:15
In reply to Re: Hey, sleepygirl, how did the first day go? » sleepygirl, posted by TamaraJ on June 4, 2005, at 20:26:15
Yeah,
There's some people out there who really spew anger, and hatred all over the place because they can. I'm glad you laughed, that's hilarious. "Like, what are you kidding? Lay off the steroids man." I think it's great that you can keep other people from ruining your day. I'm practicing/learning/trying that.
I keep thinking people will find out about how terrible I am. It's hard to go through life that way. I know I try my hardest. I guess I have to decide what's enough. I've never felt like I've gotten there. This stress is not good for me. Depression and anxiety aside (I know it's real, I'm so sensitive-rough times do really put hair triggers on those neurons), I've got to get some more realistic expectations in my head and heart. I actually do really like life. I think it has a lot to offer,I meet the most beautiful people (like yourself), have seen so many beautiful things, and have accomplished a lot despite myself, but darn it, sometimes I'm really stuck in my sh*t. Let's hear it for gentleness, patience, and acceptance, and may we remember it on the bad days.
P.S. The store's out of immodium, no cure for the verbal diarrhea, SORRY!
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