Posted by alexandra_k on May 31, 2005, at 21:13:01
In reply to Re: Deneb, I replied to you over on Social..:-) » Deneb, posted by Deneb on May 31, 2005, at 20:43:26
Okay...
It is hard.
I think...
I think you have been reading stuff about your dx on the net.
I don't think that has been helpful to you.
Dx can be a mixed blessing
As I guess you are finding out...
I know you are going through a hard time right now.
Trying to figure out how much it is okay to express your feelings; your frustration and pain and hopelessness and anger and your thoughts on suicide
And trying to figure out how much you have to curb that in order to not upset others.
There is a balance, a middle way
But it can be hard to find...
But people will help you if you let them.
Sometimes the best thing...
Can be to support others.
When I worry that other people are feeling fed up with me or annoyed with me or whatever
Then I try to post something in response to someone elses thread. A thoughtful response. To support them the way I would like other people to support me.
To model for others the kind of response I would like for myself.
I could stand to get a lot better at that ;-)
With respect to suicide...
There are people here at different places.
You might have the thoughts quite a lot
But other people do not.
It can be hard for me to keep the thoughts at bay
When I read vivid descriptions
When I hear about other peoples specific plansYou can say that you are thinking about it a lot or whatever
But sometimes the details are a little more than people want to know.
More than is good for them
More than is good for where they are at.
I get a bit wary about reading your posts not.
Because I am determined NOT to get back into that head space
And I will not put myself in the position where I am at risk for that.
I don't mind if you talk about having suicidal ideation
But I don't want to hear specific details.
Of course you are free to post what you like...
But if it keeps up then I will stop reading.Jenstar is trying to help.
I know that sometimes people say stuff
And it can really hurt.
SOmetimes it is really really hard for people to say things
But IMO it is better to try and sort out misunderstandings rather than losing friends over it.By the way:
It was after you said you wished you could make the Babble party but you couldn't that Dr Bob suggested Toronto for 2006.
He wouldn't have done that if he really didn't want to meet you.
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