Posted by Shy_Girl on April 30, 2005, at 18:30:17
Hello people
I'm wondering on what people think of me here. I change so much, I don't know who I really am. My pdoc said I have a mild borderline personality. I really really hope people don't see me as being manipulative. I'm not, at least not intentionally. I tell the truth here. When I write that I'm upset, I really AM upset in real life.
When I almost left and then was blocked, I almost changed my identity to "Green" and posted once as a newbie. I thought I had really broken bridges here during my participation in a certain thread in Admin. I choose to stick with being Shy_Girl to face things.
I tell the truth, please believe me. I don't want you to think I'm manipulative.
I'm really really afraid of being blocked again. Sometimes my thoughts are quite distorted and I can't guarantee that I won't post something uncivil. I will be completely devastated if I get blocked again and I'm afraid I may accidentally do something horrible to myself. In the event I get blocked, could someone, anyone, please contact me to comfort me a little bit. I can be brought out of my dysphoria, sometimes it just takes the right words. My hotmail is greenleaves123athotmail.com
Thanks
poster:Shy_Girl
thread:492029
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20050426/msgs/492029.html