Posted by Shy_Girl on April 30, 2005, at 15:07:50
In reply to Re: I'm sorry.. » Shy_Girl, posted by TofuEmmy on April 30, 2005, at 13:06:36
I'm much better today. Thanks for the hugs, they made me feel less alone.
> The treatment for not understanding the realities of suicide is not torture, pergatury, or death, OK?
Ok. I think you are right. I don't understand. I think I'm still very immature and I don't completely understand what it means to die. I'm not even sure I really understand what it means to be in this community, a lot of the times I cannot separate one individual's post from everyone else's...it is like there is one giant consciousness that responds to me. I don't really understand. To me it seems like either *everyone* is supporting me, or attacking me.
>The treatment is simply education and opening your heart to people who care. And the very LAST place to obtain that is the website you've mentioned. I know it well.
A lot of the time it seems like there is a battle between good and evil...the good site (babble) vs the evil newsgroup. Sometimes the good site becomes the bad site and vice versa. The people switch from being good and then all against me too, but I think this is all in my mind. I don't know how to interact with people in a sustained healthy way. :-(
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> I've posted there trying to help people reach out for help, rather than to chose death... They are pathologically dangerous. They encourage suicide for people who could be treated successfully... Please stay away from there.
I know it is a bad place. I only lurk there. It is a messed up place. Sometimes they make me feel like I belong. I don't really understand death....how can I be afraid of dying when I feel really sick physically but yet want to die all the time???> Stay at Babble where people care about you.
I don't understand that what I do affects people. I'm sorry for hurting anyone. I still don't really understand that babble is not one big entity that responds to me. It is hard for me to see that people care. I will try to be good and help people. I like to help people.
Thanks so much for making me feel better! :-)
poster:Shy_Girl
thread:491253
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20050426/msgs/491957.html