Posted by Susan47 on February 3, 2005, at 4:08:31
In reply to Susan47, posted by sunny10 on February 2, 2005, at 13:02:22
My kids spent the day at their father's being sick the third day off from school. When we talked yesterday I'd had a major meltdown in front of them and frightened them, they phoned their father at work and of course he thought I was a big freak until we had a discussion about how things really are for me, that calmed him down, understanding is a wonderful tool ... in many ways, what I've been going through has made him a better father, it's made him see the error of his own ways ... but I really need to relieve myself of this huge, incredible load of sadness and grief, sometimes it's so overwhelming it feels like all I've ever known all my life. Talking to you yesterday helped so much, and you heard for yourself the effects my mj has on me ... I need to be that without it, don't I? Class is tonight (Thursday) and so so unbelievably... containing ... I feel like a prisoner about classes ... I hate them so much. I just want to get on a ward and start doing the bloody job. I'm a bit frustrated too because I'm on yet another med for depression and it costs a bloody fortune ... why do they all cost so much?
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