Posted by sdjeff on November 2, 2004, at 1:52:44
In reply to Re: Getting up the guts to go to the hospital, posted by boomarang on November 1, 2004, at 22:03:58
Thanks gg and boomarang. Your words help. TO answer your question, b, I just plain need to be around. That is the most important thing.
This last month has been very difficult. I was going to make this a different post but I'll just stay in this thread. I lost my job. I hated it but it was paying the bills. I don't have the energy to get another one. Not to mention my handwriting looks like a first graders handwriting. My prospects are slim to none job-wise. I might as well accept the reality and wait for my SSDI to start. I also lost my girlfriend. Things were going great then out of the blue she stops calling and won't return my phone calls. I really feel like it was my fault. I wish I knew what I did. I basically feel like a complete failure. I had these grand plans to start school and become a nurse. I can't see how that will happen now. I just feel like I can never properly support my daughter and ultimately will end up a burden.
There is a lot more but I won't bore you. I want it to end. I don't want to be a burden to those who know me. The scary thing is that I'm pretty apathetic. I'm guessing it's the flat affect from my meds. Anyway, I made a deal with myself that if things get hairy enough, I would go to the hospital first.
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