Posted by B2chica on September 28, 2004, at 17:19:09
In reply to Re: s*icide thoughts when not depressed, posted by octopusprime on September 26, 2004, at 11:36:35
for lack of better words...OMG
you know i just wrote a whole paragraph going into details of some of my 'visuals' but it became very graphic, and well-it would really sound sick and i decided not to share in detail. but YES, yes, yes i do this so incredibly often with such intensity that it takes me fighting to pull out of this 'visual'.
i always jolt back into reality, it's so awkward when i do this around people...i usually use the 'bug' excuse.these are terrifying.
b2c.
> from time to time, when i do not exhibit the signs of depression, i get very strong visualizations of me driving my car into a mack truck or a concrete barracade. this is especially disturbing when i am driving.
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> i don't typically fixate on death like the other posters (i haven't done that in a few years now), but the impulse is always there and with me. and it's scary.
poster:B2chica
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