Posted by PhoenixGirl on September 8, 2004, at 16:04:52
Maybe it's because the of the short-lived relationship that I was so hopeful about. Maybe it's because I'm only taking Wellbutrin. Maybe it's because I've just recently stopped taking narcotic pain pills a week after foot surgery. I've been stuck home alone most of the time, and every difficulty caused by my foot surgery reminds me of how very alone I am. I had a couple people from my recently-ended therapy group come by to help, and I thought the guy I had been dating would come by, but he didn't. He said he would. But I haven't heard from him or even gotten an email.
God, I just have about 4 more months of my good paying yet absolutely miserable job left until I go back to college. I'm going to go into more debt to try to get into the stressful, competative, low-paying field of journalism. But I think I might like the work, which is why I'm giving it a shot. My head is full of worries.
If I just had close friends, life would be so much different. I felt considerably less depressed when my relationship with the guy I mentioned started. But it fell apart quickly. I really want to have a relationship.
Well I'm going to go now. I wish I had a pill to make this all go away.
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thread:388182
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