Posted by octopusprime on June 27, 2004, at 17:26:58
i think my "straighten up and fly right" phase is over.
now i'm out partying three nights a week again. which is not bad in a sense - i'm getting to know people better and i have some real life folks to talk to.
but it's also not good - i know i'm drinking too much. the workplace flirting situation is about to get out of control. i'm starting to get a healthy disregard for my personal safety.
but it's not bad - i feel a little more alive, i'm getting all kinds of things done, i'm overscheduling myself, i'm on top of the world.
but it's also not good - inevitably i will crash again.
but it's not bad - isn't summer a time for partying? and i am young and single and free of responsibilities ... isn't this what i'm supposed to be doing?
but it's also not good - it's all fun and games until somebody gets hurt or loses their job or gets pregnant.
but it's not bad - where do we get in life if we resist invitations?
but it's also not good - i'm not sleeping well and i feel dehydrated and half the time my mouth feels like it's stuffed with socks
but it's not bad -
but it's also not good -does anybody else have phases like this? is straightening up and flying right overrated? is this what it's like to feel better or is this just a final frenzy before i flail to a fiery fallout?
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