Posted by Nataliee on June 25, 2004, at 14:46:15
In reply to self-medicating » Nataliee, posted by octopusprime on June 25, 2004, at 10:04:34
Awe,
thanks everyone who posted to me (:
Depression runs in my family, and i find it counter productive talking with them, as it justs upsets them, which upsets me, blah blah blee blee blah.So, its SO AMAZING to know i'm not alone, that theres a zillion of us out there dealing with misery in our minds everyday...
I'm doing much better today, although i'm not at work, i've been up for almost five hours now, and i;m not going to let myself back in bed until a "normal" bedtime. My BF, who has NO IDEA what its like to be clinically depressed,(who still loves me even though he doesn't really understand what i'm going through) piled chairs and other heavy things on my bed,so it would be a challenge to get back into it and escape into sleep. what a great guy (:
I'm just not in control of my emotions. I hate it. Blah.
Yeah,and i'm really trying to cut down on my smoking Pot. I know it effects my sleep, and makes me feel dopey. But, it saved me last night. I felt like my mind was digging at the inside of my skull and sinuses, i was full of PANIC! AHHH!!! MY BRAIN WAS YELLING IN UPPER CASE!! AHHH!!!! all alarms going off...then i decided i couldn't take it anymore, and within a minute of smoking the gange, I felt almost normal. not even really "high" just calm, something i haven't felt in days and days....
Anyway, i'm rambling. thanks again everyone, just knowing i'm not alone, wow, does it ever feel good.
I wish i had been told i'd feel such INSANE withdrawl symptoms during this transition from Effexor/Epival to Prozac. Why won't doctors just tell you the truth? Grrrrarraaarr.....again, thankyou,
Nataliee
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