Posted by Angel Girl on June 24, 2004, at 23:19:49
In reply to ag.., posted by justyourlaugh on June 24, 2004, at 22:24:47
> when i was 8 years old i wrote a poem
> "stop the world i want to get off"...
> your post was so touching.
> i can understand your pain..
> dont put all your eggs into the "friend " basket..
> you are not defined by hurt..
> please understand your worth..
> everything you feel is real.
> everything you want is deserved.
> i care
> jyljyl
You see, I can't even get the stupid saying right. I said 'ride', it should be 'world'.
What other baskets are there. Mine are all empty. I AM worthless. If I wasn't then why does everybody discard me like yesterday's garbage? If I was worth anything, then people would want to be around me but they don't. Even if they make the stupid mistake of initially thinking I'm worthy of being their friend, they soon realize how wrong they had been and toss me on the garbage pile.
You're right, everything I feel is real, I feel hurt, unworthy, unloved, unwanted, invisible, you name it, fill in your own words.
I don't deserve anything. If I did, then I would have it, I have nothing but heartache and pain and that's all that I'll ever have.
I'm just so tired of all of it. I don't want to be here anymore.
AG
poster:Angel Girl
thread:360012
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20040619/msgs/360053.html