Posted by Simus on May 31, 2004, at 0:07:56
In reply to RE::: sent sandy an post toinght, posted by mystic on May 30, 2004, at 22:57:23
> i'm not trying to help myself because i always wont take my xanax or my increase but i feel like i have no chioces i'm totally afraid of the increase
Oh Mystic, this is the depression talking. I recognize it well, because that is what I sounded like such a short time ago. And we all have good reasons to dread medications - we have BEEN THROUGH IT on these drugs!!! Oh, my!!! When I see someone who's doctor gives them an antidepressant sample because they just "had a bad day", I want to yank it out of their hands and stomp on it. I tell people that medication is a LAST resort, because they have no idea what they are getting into with meds.
> I will help every single person on this post to the depth of my being and i truely want everyone to be ok i love you all
We know, sweetie. We love you too.
> but i dont love myself the same way...
I know this is just the depression again. But I am going to tell you to do something even though you are low right now, Mystic, because this is the only time you can do it. You have broken the family cycle of child abuse. But you have one more cycle to break - the cycle of not loving yourself. Do not pass this on to the your daughter and grandson. Imagine them feeling toward themselves the way you feel toward yourself right now. Break it now. It will take some work. But learn to love yourself. Be kind to yourself. REFUSE to think negative thoughts about yourself, and never let negative words about yourself come out of your mouth. As a matter of fact, make a list of everything you want to be, and speak these things out loud about yourself as if it was already true.
I am going to give you a little something from the "Message" version of the Bible that tells what God thinks of you. I pray that it blesses you.
Romans 8:29 "God knew what he was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the lives of those who love him along the same lines as the life of his Son. The Son stands first in the line of humanity he restored. We see the original and intended shape of our lives there in him. 30After God made that decision of what his children should be like, he followed it up by calling people by name. After he called them by name, he set them on a solid basis with himself. And then, after getting them established, he stayed with them to the end, gloriously completing what he had begun.
31So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? 32If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? 33And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? 34Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us--who was raised to life for us!-is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. 35Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ's love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture:36"They kill us in cold blood because they hate you. We're sitting ducks; they pick us off one by one."
37None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. 38I'm absolutely convinced that nothing--nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, 39high or low, thinkable or unthinkable--absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us."
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