Posted by Simus on May 29, 2004, at 23:31:30
In reply to :(, posted by Magdalena on May 29, 2004, at 23:09:50
> i did it, i bailed on our plans tomorrow to go to the racetrack...my boyfriend is upset with me now,
Sweetie, just concentrate on getting better, and you will have a lifetime to make up for it.
> but how can i explain what i am feeling..i just feel like i want to be alone, yet at the same time i dont...
You can't explain it to someone who hasn't experienced it.
> i just feel really sad, like this happiness i recently found is being threatend my my illness..i just want to be normal, i want to be happy, but i keep letting people down and in turn i let myself down. i just feel like curling up with my pillow and crying for a week straight.
This is what life looks like through the eyes of depression. It WILL go away, and life WILL be good again!
> since i bailed maybe i will start my increase tomorrow.
It may help, but give it some time to take effect.
> i am such a letdown,
No you aren't. You aren't well. And when the depression lifts, so will the negative self-talk. So try not to dwell on it now. Be kind to yourself through the recovery process, and don't expect too much of yourself just yet.
God bless.
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