Posted by devon00 on May 7, 2004, at 18:15:50
In reply to Abused as child...life in shambles, posted by devon00 on April 30, 2004, at 23:10:30
Thanks for your thoughts, everyone. I'm going through an extremely rough patch right now. For a while everything was going smoothly but now things are a mess...and the sadness is always bubbling up to the surface.
The thing that really kills me is that I push people away. I meet lots of great people but I am just so fearful, paranoid and insecure that I don't let myself be close to them or them to me. It's like dying of thirst but not being able to swallow water. I'm so lonely, yet I behave in ways that isolate myself.
Anyway, I'm going to look for a therapist. Gosh, I feel like I should be in therapy 5x per week (and would be, if I could afford it), but I guess I'll just have to do whatever I can.
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