Posted by Tootercat on April 15, 2004, at 17:42:14
I feel like nobody came to the playground today..what a nincompoop I am huh?
On a personal note I am flying on cloud 9 filled with so much love right now it is frightening and wonderful at the same time. I have never felt this way about anyone in my life nor has this much love been given to me before in my life. I have always kept a little in reserve for protection and this time I'm not and it is so fulfilling. I trust this man like I have never trusted a man before. As a young girl I swore that I would NEVER depend on or "give in to" anyone whereupon I would lose my independence or feel "less than". That continued into adulthood.
Needless to say I have had major control issues and have always wanted to prove "I can do it myself". Well 2 marriages later and being rather tired of being the "one in charge" I have had some life changing attitude adjustments and that allowed this incredible person to come into my life. I also had never wanted to love or need someone so much that if I lost them to "whatever" I would feel the ultimate sorrow. What a shame if I had gone my whole life denying myself the opportunity to experience "true love".You can remove your fingers from your throats now :)
Toots
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