Posted by Dinah on March 31, 2004, at 8:14:07
Because I assume every physical symptom is tied to anxiety and stress.
Chest pains? Stress.
Eczema flareup? Obviously the panic attacks have upped my sweating.
Last night the left side of my face felt numb. I checked it out in the mirror. Everything looked symmetrical. So I figured it had something to do with the spasms and tics I've been experiencing for weeks.
And I'm absolutely positive I'm right about all those things. But when, someday, something isn't a stress related somatization, how will I know it?
Which is sort of an idle question, because at the moment I'm not sure I care enough to worry about it.
My parents are getting older and need more help. Work isn't getting any easier and the last few days have been overflowing with mini-disasters and things I have no confidence in my ability to do. And that's not low self esteem. I'm generally very good at what I do. But these things I had to turn over to someone more senior after I had done my best with them because someone needed to check them out. But it made me feel stupid, and I don't like feeling stupid. Harry hasn't gotten any worse since January or so, and he's already well outlived the estimates, but he can't buck the odds forever. I curl around him in the morning and just don't want to leave the bed.
I am just soooo tired and so tense and I feel like everyone's unhappy with me which they probably are and I just want to crawl into bed and pull up the covers but I promised too many things to too many people.
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