Posted by syringachalet on March 10, 2004, at 13:20:44
Have any of you ever felt that you changed so much of your life to either make other people happy or at least get them out of your face that you now often dont know who you really are anymore?
For so many years I was the care giver. The one that was everyones advocate to see that they got whatever health services they needed to at least function and in many cases to have some resemblance of happiness in their lives.Now I am the care receiver and I cant handle it. I know how things should be and because it is either so much energy to fight for my rights or I just cave in and let them do whatever they want just for them to just go away.
I have been on bedrest for the past ten days because of a skin breakdown that I am being blamed for because I didnt stand up to my new caregiver and DEMAND that she lay me down every afternoon for an hour. I have been through some terrible personal care attendants and at least this one shows up and helps me with my bath 3 times a week and cooks me one good hot meal everyday 5 days a week.
I guess I am being remeinded daily what my independence from institutional care is worth.
Just a frustrated PSB wacko.....
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