Posted by kid47 on March 5, 2004, at 12:33:52
In reply to I've decided I'm just plain wierd, posted by socialdeviantjeff on March 5, 2004, at 1:31:52
If you don't mind me butting in:
> I can hardly function. My future is a Goth cliche'. My pathology is very complicated. I react adversely and paradoxically to so many meds that avenue is nearly closed. Hell, I just don't know what to do. One minute Im fine, the next I'm a wreck.
Believe me, I understand your frustration. I have known quite a few folks, myself included,
who had many unsuccesful med trials. The good news is, most of them, myself included, finally found the right doc who figured out the right cocktail. I still have some horrific days, but overall I feel a WHOLE LOT BETTER!! Try and "Keep the Faith">I feel like all of humanity either hates me or is afraid of me.
Not in Babble Land.
> And this hardly bothers me. I feel like Hannibal Lecter without the whole killing thing. I guess it does bother me on some level; I'm writing about it and trying to change although the harder I try the more impossible it gets.
Actually, I liked Hannibal the Canibal (except for the whole killing thing and eating peoples livers (with a side of Fava beans a nice Chianti)
> I guess it's like my grandma said once, "I will need to find a lady with money and a trade."
Your grandma's a very wise women. This is just good advice for any man, weird or otherwise. =0)
I'm gonna play Pollyanna for a minute. (I tried out for the part in a school play, but they said they would prefer a female) I've read a lot of your posts. You are smart, articulate and perceptive. Even though your life feels like sh*t right now, you will, in time, find your niche. You will find more & more situations & people who appreciate your "weirdness" You will find, I'm betting sooner than later, someone special who *gets* you. It might not ever be a perfect life, but it will sure be worth the effort. I hope this all doesn't come off sounding lame, but I am convinced things WILL get better. Take care
Peace out
kid
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