Posted by JimD on November 14, 2003, at 12:42:09
I'm a gay guy living in a small town. I spent two years of my life dating a guy, who has since cast me to the curb. I fell head over heals for this guy, and in spite of having broken up with him close to a year ago, I'm most certainly still not over him.We have continued to mess around (yes, i know, a mistake) and maintained a 'friendship' for the past year. It is impossible to cast him out of my life because we are in the same social circles. Of course, I still have feelings for him that are extremely intense, and deep down inside, I want him back.
I don't know what bothers me more: not being together with him, or simply feeling as though we can't be good friends. We talk on the phone/email at least every other day and tend to see each other once or twice per week, be it intentional or by bumping into each other at the one gay bar in town. Regardless, the content of our discussions is nothing more than small talk. I feel as though we call to 'check in' on each other more than to hear what the other has to say.
I know that I'm foolish for clinging to hope, but I can't seem to help myself. What to do...
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thread:279740
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