Posted by zeugma on October 23, 2003, at 20:14:33
In reply to Re: another nauseating problem, posted by KellyD on October 23, 2003, at 20:03:02
Thanks so much for your responses. I am feeling like anxiety is coming close to making me fall apart right now. I thought about the newspaper ploy- believe me if I'd had any lying around i would have wrapped myself in it and gotten home like that. What I'm upset about is that I am in a very responsible position where I work, and there was an already bad situation there (the other teachers calling out). I feel very validated though by what you say.
it's also upsetting the kind of feelings I had from the soiled pants - I felt like I was back in kindergarten and had had an *accident*. The essence of avoidant personality disorder is that kind of terrible embarassment. Especially awful to feel that way when you're surrounded by children and you're a teacher!
To say the least I am going to have a lot of material for my next CBT session. I also see my pdoc at 10:30 tomorrow morning and I plan to ask him about a benzodiazepine for this kind of self-consciousness and agitation. I feel very close to meltdown right now.
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