Posted by femlite on October 13, 2003, at 15:48:25
In reply to Re: Tired of Chasing Geese, posted by DharmaMama on October 13, 2003, at 14:56:27
bless you for the encouragement
Ive just decided with the drawer full of meds I have I can just do as well as the pdocs (put you on meds and see if it works) until I figure out what to do next. Thank you for the affirmation. Its amazing how much knowing your not alone helps. Im really sorry for you and for any one who is on their own and going through this nonsense.
I suffer so much but Im good at keeping it locked up inside. Which is so bad for me but its allowed me to appear normal long enough find a good husband and raise two sweeties. (when I hit mid life the floor kinda dropped out from under me) When the docs make me feel sooooo crazy, I have my kids my kitties, horses and hubby to come home to.Yes we have horses. We usually have a few but were down to one. They are great therapy. My kids also take lessons.
Like I said If they wont dx me, I figure I can do as good for now. After 3 docs the word bipolar finally came up. Ive kinda suspected it all along
I think the rub is that BPs are too much trouble and matainence.Iv even been sent by one doc to another for a dx and still no results.
With the meds I have at the moment,I think I can manage, but like you Im just so discouraged and disgusted and I feel used, they got their paycheck and i got a drawer full of meds, and what i really need is some answers, even one answer would do!
I dont know if i can help you any, but my door is always open.I really dont want meds thrown at me. But hey, two can play this game right?
Thanks for the good words> Mama, do not be embarrassed. I have been in your shoes before. I am sure many of us have been. I so much know how you feel about not being able to find a pdoc. I have not been able to find one. I recently checked out of a hospital from being I guess you wld say overwhelmed/depressed and my assigned pdoc was supposed to find me continued therapy. Well it is two months after I checked out and I have yet to find a doc. I have looked myself. I also narrowed the list for him with doctors on my plan and he still has not gotten back to me. They will not even diagnosed me. They just want to throw me on meds to see which one works. Seems as though no one wants to talk anymore. I am getting frustrated on top of dealing with being sick.
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> I noticed you said riding lessons and mentioned horses.
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> Keep your chin up.
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