Posted by girl on September 26, 2003, at 13:49:41
I hit a slump today. I've just been crying the whole day. Yesterday, I had a great night with friends and one would think I would wake up energized and happy. Instead I'm more depressed than I have been in a while.
The last month have been a decline. I'm lethargic and barely leave my apartment. I know I should just get out but the idea of going out of my house (some days my room even!) is just a pure turn-off. I simply don't want to do anything. It's wake up and lie in bed till it's time to sleep again day in and day out. The empty days just fly by and I don't mind at all.
I used to go just to see friends or pamper myself at a spa or god knows what other frivolity and now hardly anything gets me out, not even to visit my grandfather who is my favorite person in the world or my mother who is my second favorite person.
Today I just keep crying. I watched a movie and burst into tears. And I was watching a comedy!! I don't think it has anything to do with me going off prozac. I'm on Lupram right now and it's not really doing any good for me, but at the same time at least it's not making things worse. If things are not numb, it's empty.
My husband is the only thing that keeps me going. I seem to function only for him and our dogs. I've become quite clingy and it worries me. I don't want to smother my husband with being so needy. I don't want to make things hard for him. I'm constantly afraid of him leaving or taking off for a while because he may feel to overpowered by how I'm feeling. I try not to be a bother at all, but there are days when I just need him so badly I can't help but get all needy, which of course every man hates. Thank god he's been incredibly patient and supportive of me... so far.
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