Posted by Penny on July 23, 2003, at 14:32:21
In reply to Whining - sorry in advance, posted by Penny on July 22, 2003, at 10:27:51
I just got off the phone with my pdoc and he said I can always go to the hospital, if I'm feeling like hurting myself, but that they rarely admit patients unless self-harm is imminent, at any of the hospitals here. I told him that right this minute, as I am at work, I'm okay, but that I don't know about tonight, and he said that if I start planning to do something then I should go to the hospital.
Anyway, I've moved my appointment with him up to noon tomorrow, instead of Friday evening, and then I have therapy tomorrow evening, and I have WW tonight, so that's something to do, and then I think I will go home and take some Geodon and go to bed. At least when I am asleep I can forget about things.
I will talk to him more tomorrow about my options. I just hate to go somewhere where they're going to mess with my medication when I don't really trust any other docs to do that except for mine. He knows me, they don't. And I've had such bad experiences with psychiatrists. I guess the stability and support would be good, but the doctors wouldn't be. I just don't trust them.
But, if I need to go, I will I guess. Right now I'm shaking and panicky and feeling very funny. But, I am at work and I have things to keep me busy until 5, and then I will go home and go to WW and then, like I said, go to bed.
Ugh. I feel sick.
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