Posted by giget on July 14, 2003, at 9:32:19
In reply to Re: to suicide survivors... » gabbix2, posted by noa on July 14, 2003, at 0:56:23
I am not happy I survived. It was a thought out decision in my life and was supposta be an end. I have not found a new look to life or a feeling that sucide is wrong. I still belive it is the choice of an individual.
I have made 2 attempts and wish I would have not made it through them. My life is alot better now, then during the breakdown, and I seem to have a normal life, but I still do not see any benifit to me being here.
I did not attempt to get people to notice me, or to get help. But to DIE. Some people really do mean it when they do sucide. No matter what anyone says in this life I will always feel that way.
I am not saying that I do not do things now that are not fun and I am glad that I did. I am just saying that my life was supposta end on that day. I do not regret the attempt, just the failure. A person has only so long on Earth, and some of us have out lived the life.
I don't see life now as.. well if I would have died I would not have to go through pain, or happiness, or to help someone.... It is just my time to go. It is not something I get worked up about, but this is how I believe....
Most people will tell you differently but I made the attempt to succed, not to fall short. I am not lucky to be here and I just have to be here.
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