Posted by Gabbix2 on July 4, 2003, at 20:00:15
In reply to Re: I think I'm broken up...Dinah » Gabbix2, posted by noa on July 4, 2003, at 17:39:50
And thank you both..
The man I've been seeing, and am crazy over,
as he has been over me, is from the U.S, he's decided he wants to live with me in Canada, and
work here, so he left me, to work in the U.s for a while, to get some money together, get his visa etc, etc...
Now, he's very understanding that, I've not once,
not ONcE, had a promise kept of a significant sort, from a man, or otherwise,and that this would be really hard on me, Before he left
he gave me a diamond ring, and a t-shirt of his (that smells like him) for when things get rough.
You see I don't have a phone, and he has no computer, he promised to write letters, but so far I haven't heard from him.
It was my first real jewel, its funny I didn't even know it was a diamond!I was okay for a while, its been about 10 days, but I woke up with a jolt a few mornings ago, a jolt that usually means "somethings up"
And thats the problem. I'm usually right intuitively. So I'm trying to rationalize saying a man doesn't do those things, unless he's serious, but I also know that people break promises all the time, and do the strangest things after being so sincere, and not hearing from him and not being able to contact him
is making me sick.
Its getting to the point where I'm triggering myself into a depression
(summers a risky time for me anyway.)
I'm alone,
I'm not working, I'm trying to stay active and stuff, but this is just eating at me. And All I do is sit and shake with anxiety,I'm sorry this isn't written very clearly I'm just all over the place today.
Thanks for listening
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