Posted by NikkiT2 on July 4, 2003, at 9:14:59
OK, so I'm pretty sure that I am having a bad reaction to tje prozac I started 3 weeks ago.. but (and I promise not to swear) darn it bad.. and its really taken me by suprise...
On wednesday I started get that whole stomach churning, light headed anxirty feeling.. but it wasn;t too bad.. yesterday was slightly worse, but OK. When I went to bed last night I couldn't sleep and bad thoughts started circulating.. fantasies of dying and how I would look dead.. stuff like that.
Now today I am shaking, feeling sick, anxiety through the roof, light headed, sweating.. and those thoughts are swirling through my head like mad. Fantasies of self harming (which I *must* not do.. I will *not* give in to that) and shooting myself. These are just fantasies, and I am not planning on carrying any of this out, but I guess this is what they call suicidal ideation. But it feels so hard to deal with.This has taken me by suprise so much. I had felt nothing from the prozac this far so thought I was in the clear for it.. and I haven't felt like this for quite some time (8 - 9 months).. My zyprexa normally keeps all suicidal / self harming thoughts out of my head, so this has hit me like a truck.
I've put in a call to my psych, as he said I must do that if I felt anything ike this, but he isn't about but the guy said he'd pass the message on, so I guess I have to wait around for a call back now. I'm due to go out at 8pm (is 3:15pm now) and not sure I can make it.. have to try and its a really good friends of my husbands 40th birthday... and we have bought him to coolest present!! (A teddy bear dressed as a gimp)
Oh... buggerations.
Nikki
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