Posted by WorryGirl on June 13, 2003, at 10:14:29
In reply to Re: Recent diagnosis » WorryGirl, posted by Dinah on June 13, 2003, at 9:57:44
Hi Dinah,
Last night I was worrying about what if I can never truly relieve my anxiety because the meds will only make me worse? I am going to ask the p-doc about Klonipin or something like it if I don't notice much improvement. I mean, which is worse, the mood swings or the high anxiety?The therapist is a woman, who has 4 grown children. The p-doc is a man, and I know nothing of his family life, if he even has one. I suspect he could possibly be gay but one never knows.
I do feel that having 2 very young children has contributed a lot to my anxiety. I have raised my voice to my older one sometimes, but always try to show her love and attention whenever possible. Although I have had tendencies to withdraw, even when I'm in the depths of worry and/or despair I always hug her (my oldest) and tell her I love her and that mommy isn't feeling very well. I feel awful when I'm like this and honestly didn't anticipate just how constant childrearing is. To hear my mother talk, my sisters and I sat in chairs with our hands folder wearing lace dresses; even when we were toddlers - lol!
But we have so many good times, too, and they more than make up for my black moods. My children know they are loved, and I am noticing that my youngest daughter doesn't seem to test me as often as my older. So far she seems oblivious to everything but I'm sure some of my moods have been absorbed by her, hopefully not for the worse.
My older daughter is quite smart and extremely strong willed. She is also very expressive and loving. Wouldn't trade her for the world :)
I agree that as they get older and can communicate better things will get better.
My therapist understands what it is like, and initially she felt that I mainly had anxiety. But it appears that the BP is taking predominance right now.
I JUST WANT TO FEEL BETTER AND SOON!
If my anxiety isn't relieved soon I don't know what I'm going to do :(
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